Just the other night, an amazing idea came to me… I would like to take you through my personal life, by using the Tarot. I think this is good for several reasons. You get to know more about who I really am. You can follow my journey and discover common pains. You get to learn a lot of Tarot along the way. So… if interested in reading the nitty gritty of my life, continue. If not, you may want skip the next four weeks of this BLOG.
I’d like to begin our journey by taking you through one of the most influential, damaging, and life-changing relationships I have ever had. For the next few blog entries, I will be diving into this complex relationship. This relationship is with my father.
My father is a very dark, unfeeling, and cruel person. He is also one of the most direct and intelligent men I have ever known. He was a perfectionist, but only in some aspects of his life. For these reasons, I refer to a piece of my father as, The Emperor.
Like the Emperor, my father was stern, decisive, and fixed-solid. Unlike, the Emperor, my father was unstable, and lacked the solutions for his material problems. Sure, he was strong in the physical sense; however, emotionally he was broken.
When I was a child, he once handed me several pieces of unused lumber. As an unsuccessful and self-made carpenter, he often came by such pieces of wood. He handed me a hammer, a tool belt, and a fist full of nails. His only instructions were to hammer the nails into the wood. He gave me all the time I wanted with this project and only one rule; it was up to me to decide where the nails went.
So for the better part of a Saturday, I put the planks of wood on top of each other and hammered until all of the nails were used. Occasionally, he would walk by and explain how I used too many strikes of the hammer on each nail. At one point, he simply walked by me with his head down and muttered something under his breath. Most often, he would walk by and correct the way I held my hammer and make a point to discuss my weak wrists. An absolute Emperor, right?
At the end of the day, I proudly presented my finished project to him. My thumbs were beaten, black and blue. You should have seen my face; I had a grin from ear to ear. I was certain that he would be thrilled. I could not have been more wrong.
My father took the project from me and stared at it with such disappointment in his face. He said, “This wasn’t about the nails. This was to determine how intelligent you are. You had everything you needed here to build something, anything. All you did was poorly hammer all of my damned nails into a useless piece of junk.”
As you could imagine, I was heartbroken. In my little world, I was finally spending quality time with my Dad. But no, I was taking an exam and failed... miserably. Sure, I could have made anything with that wood. I could have made a bench. I could have used other tools and made a table or a small house. But, all I wanted to make that day was my father proud.
Recently, I took a good look at my schedule and made a huge decision… I am going to open up more days and accept more clients! In the past, I only did Tarot Readings for 3 days out of the week. Truth is, I am ready for more. So, let’s BLOG about it.
When I first started reading Tarot professionally, I decided that I would only read on Wednesdays, Thursdays, and Saturdays. I figured that I would fill up those days and then open more. The time has come to open those other days.
I am now reading clients Monday-Saturday!!! So, what does this mean? This means that I am on the look out to fill my books with people to read and help! I have space for more than 43 NEW CLIENTS! And I want your help to get me there!
If you are already a KenBoggle client and you are enjoying the benefits of Tarot in your life, I thank you for staying with me. If you are a KenBoggle client and already share me with your friends and family, I greatly appreciate you! All of you know who you are! Please keep it up! Without you, I could not continue to follow Tarot as my passion.
But the time has come for me to ask all of you for your help. I am asking each of you to share your KenBoggle experiences with friends and family to encourage them to try Tarot for themselves. You may feel a little uneasy talking about Tarot with other people, but it would mean so much to me if you would.
Tell them about how Tarot has benefited you. Tell them about all of the things that you have come to learn about yourself and all of the things I have helped you with. And please share my site and Social Media with them; especially, those in your life who need direction and guidance.
Maybe you have a friend who is suffering through divorce, maybe even a custody issue? Share me with this person. Maybe you have a friend who struggles with self-worth and confidence? Share me with them. Maybe you have a friend who has a million reasons to be unhappy and can’t find value in their life? Share me with them! The long and short of it is that I want you to share me with people in your life that need me and could use the help.
Again, I want to thank all of the people who are regulars and already sharing me with others. Like I said, I wouldn’t be able to follow this passion of mine without you. To everyone else, please get out there and spread the word! Help me accomplish my goal and bring joy to those around you.
All my Love,
Last week, I had a meltdown- not a breakdown, just a meltdown. When I did, I had so many people reach out to me. So many people wrote me messages. A lot of these messages were very kind and gentle; a few others were right out slap in the face. But both types of messages were comforting, I think we should BLOG about it.
From time to time, each and every single one of us has a bad period. A few of us keep these times to ourselves, preferring to deal with our issues alone. Conversely, many other people immediately turn to social media. They post the raw truth of their hurt and their pain. Me? I like to publicly crack a joke about my issues. Finding the humor in my problems is how I cope. The truth is I need to stop doing that. Why? Because a lot of people take my humor as a cry for help and it makes them worry.
When I have meltdowns, I first recognize that I am having one. Shortly after this realization, I immediately try to make a joke about it. After finding humor in my situation, I can see all the ways that it isn’t so bad. Once I find that my situation is within my power to change, I change it. This is my process. Side note, telling me how bad others have it does me no good. It only makes me feel bad for the poor bastard that has it worse than I do.
Honestly, there is nothing anyone can say or do when I am going through a difficult time. Why? Because there is nothing anyone can say that I haven’t already thought of myself. Instead, I turn to humor and my three step process to overcoming my issues. What is my three step process? Well, I am glad you ask.
First, I turn to my faith. I get off my ass, go to my prayer room, pray and chant. I pray to lighten what is dark within me, strengthen what is weak, and for the restoration of my peace. I do this for as long as it takes. I do not come out of that prayer room until I have made a huge leap in recovery. Then, at the end of the day, I go back in and express my gratitude for having made those leaps and bounds.
Second, I make concrete action to feel better. I eliminate the patterns of behavior that have kept me in my darkness. Usually, these include coming out of the bed, turning off social media, getting in some exercise, and staying away from the kitchen. Once I have made concrete action, I immediately start to feel better. Remember, prayer is wonderful…. but prayer AND concrete action make everything much better.
Lastly, I make a vow or determination to not give in or give up. I make a determination deep in my soul that I will no longer allow my fundamental darkness to mess with me. I vow to overcome it and conquer it. Anytime my resolve starts to falter, I go back to steps one and two. I repeat this process over and over until I have made actual proof in my life that I have achieved victory.
Why does any of this matter to you? I say all of this to encourage you to do the same in your darkest moments. I encourage you to find the humor, turn to your spiritual practice, make concrete action to change what needs changed, AND persevere. I preach these things to my clients and I do live by them. I do this because it is a fail proof way to win. It is a fail proof way to live a life of strength, and to forge tremendous character.
Just remember this, even the best fall down. Even the best have their dark moments. Even gurus and sages will sometimes find themselves grasping for the light. Do not lose faith in them, gossip or criticize them behind their back. Instead, see them for what they truly are… human. Watch how they handle their issues. Pay attention to how they raise themselves back up from the depths. You may learn a little something about yourself in the process.
Having said all of that… maybe you need to talk to someone about your issues? Maybe you need an outsider you will listen without judgement and provide clarity? If so, get yourself a Tarot Reading with me. The Tarot is a great source for clarity, guidance, and motivation. Every client I have tells me how their reading with me has positively affected their life. There are many times that I reach out to the Tarot to help me along my path, as well! More than that, you can tell by this blog that I have seen hard times and will be able to understand your hurt and pain. Don’t suffer alone, reach out to me and together we will work out what is happening in your life.